Jessica

Santa Cruz, CA, United States

I’m using this account as a live journal to hold myself accountable and hopefully my transparency is relatable to a fellow Queen 🫶

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19 Jan 02:40

Accountability check in: Day 18 of 30 days of movement #NEW

Today was a true rest day. No jogging, no walking, no QW workout just household chores and a stroll around the block a couple times with the boys. Felt nice. I did attempt to watch some nutrition courses but none of the videos would load? Anybody else have any issues?

Wendy! Still wishing you success and I hope you’re continuing on your QW journey.

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18 Jan 03:42

Accountability check in: Day 17 of 30 days of movement #NEW

I am very thankful that I am gaining friendship but I feel like I am allowing myself to get distracted. I am still working out, today I jogged 1.5 miles and met up with the girls from my building at the mall where we walked laps and let our kids play together. I got home and I am exhausted from the week. Each of them have husbands and support at home with their kids and they don’t fully understand how much of a challenge single parenting can be. I feel stretched thin but I’m unsure if this is just my mind wanting to retreat to its comfort zone, isolation or if these are true feelings. I’m going to continue to meet up but I need to set boundaries and if I get overwhelmed remind myself it’s ok to raincheck.

I do love jogging but I just feel like I’m getting more of a workout with the QW app. Part of me feels guilty? Or like I’m failing on days I did not use the app.

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17 Jan 02:35

Accountability check in: Day 16 of 30 days of movement. #NEW

Today was an active rest day. The boys and I went to the gym. Did some deep stretching and light cardio and tested out some equipment I watched on YouTube. Next weeks mini goal is to bring QW to the gym and utilize the gym workout videos! Overall good day feel better than yesterday!

Wendy, I hope you are making progress and utilizing all that is offered to us through QW!!

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16 Jan 01:50

Accountability check in: Day 15 of 30 days of movement. #NEW

I hit a brick wall today. I still ran 1.5 miles and walked 1 mile at pace… did a little weights and I plan to close out the day with Fabiana abs and booty but I don’t know… I had a forced interaction with my ex and it just is like gnawing on my gut. I feel unmotivated. Unsure. Tomorrow is a new day and we will start fresh.

Wendy! Sending you love and positive thoughts!

*I did not workout with Fabiana I ate chips and ice cream. Granted, it was four spoons of ice cream and the 5 chips over the serving suggestion but still… it’s the action of the old habit that I’m scared of. I knew what I was doing and I just continued to self sabotage. How do I change this behavior? How do I get to a point where my ex doesn’t have such a crippling affect on me. I feel like I just wasted the last 15 days for empty calories… I will refocus and regroup and move forward from this setback. I have to.

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15 Jan 02:57

Accountability check in: Day 14 of 30 days of movement #NEW

I joined a local gym today. The girls that I mentioned from my accountability post day 12, they go to this gym. I went in while my oldest was in school. I thought I’d just take a tour and come back when I could afford it. The manager not only hooked it up with a discounted membership but also offered me a job!! I still have to go through the hiring process so keep us in your prayers… but I have been looking for something that would allow me to bring in money without having to pay for childcare. With this position I can bring both of my boys with me to work… but you can even see on here in the comment sections when we were asked what our one Christmas wish would be…I asked for this!!! God blessed me!!

I went back with both of my boys after I picked the oldest from school. I jogged on the treadmill for one mile and came home to complete the abs and booty courses with Fabiana . While we were there the boys played in the kid zone area and I was able to see them from where I was working out on the gym floor. First time I’ve had them babysat. Scary. We didn’t spend much time today because I wanted to see how they would do/react to the new surroundings.

A lot of transitions going on and major shifts.. all positive and welcomed.

Fabiana I truly believe that without embracing the positivity from this community none of these things would be happening. The power of a true mental shift is an unbelievable miracle. Thank you

Wendy, I’m thinking of you every day… looking out for a text or post from you. I hope you’re doing well!!

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14 Jan 01:51

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Accountability check in: Day 13 of 30 days of movement. #NEW \I was ready to half ass it\

We came back feeling good after the rest day. I worked out with Fabiana for her abs and booty class. I started a HIIT class with her after to close out the hour but the boys just weren’t having it. I’ll have to complete the second half of the work out later tonight but the boys swear they are talking directly to her, haha. I love it!

*ok, I came back and got it done. After I got the boys to sleep I was just laying there with them thinkin like, “QW advertises 30 minutes 3 days a week so I’m good. 🙄” Then I heard my creep ass ex’s voice in my head doggin me like I told you you would stay fat I told you you couldn’t do it… I got up out bed and smashed that intermediate HIIT workout with Fabiana
And when I wanted to stop during some of the rounds I just let it all out. “Im here for me not you!! - See ME b*- I don’t give a F *what you think anymore!!” Got a little crazy for a minute but I reeled it back in and thanked myself for showing up and continuing to get that full hour of movement in.
**A question for our coaches: Is it bad to have a break between workouts like that? Or is it something like.. as long as it gets done it’s good? I feel like I’m starting all over again and that like heart pump and sweat is gone which makes me feel like I didn’t do enough.

Wendy! I hope you clocked in on the app today and I hope you’re doing well!

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13 Jan 05:50

This is horrifying…. Putting a picture like this on the internet… BUT “pictures or it didn’t happen”, right?! I don’t know how long it will take to get to where I want to be but I know 6 months from now I will have evolved from what you see here to a version of me that is more confident, radiant and happy!

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12 Jan 19:20

Accountability check in: Day 12 of 30 days of movement #NEW

Today is a rest day. After watching Jennifer’s videos I decided I needed to step out of my comfort zone. I live in an apartment complex and I see the same couple of women that are around my age and one of them has a baby that is close to my baby’s age, so… I knocked on their door and asked if they wanted to join my boys and I at the park. We ended up getting coffee and doing several loops around the park and playing with our kids outside. This is something I would NEVER EVER do! I have isolated myself for so many years because I didn’t feel worthy of love or friendship. I know y’all are sick of hearing me say it but I seriously am so thankful for QW! I would have stayed on my path of deep depression and sabotage if not for QW. It’s not just me QW has helped… it’s my boys.. my family!

I dropped 9 pounds!! The most weight I’ve lost since I had my baby and honestly the most weight I’ve lost in years. It feels so amazing to know that the work I’m putting in is already showing a reward!!

Wendy, I’m thinking of you and I hope you had a beautiful Sunday! Remember we are all here for eachother and we want to see you overcome and thrive!

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11 Jan 23:14

Accountability check in: Day 11 of 30 days of movement #NEW

I haven’t done my workout yet. It seems like 10/11/ 12 is the magic hour for me lately.

Today I’ve been taking time to dive deeper into the app. Girl, 78 bucks is a steal for all that is offered to us! A couple days ago I was like, “man, I wish I had access to a nutritionist.” Guess what? Hello!! I didn’t realize we had the access we have to Coach Alexis
The mindset coaching with Jennifer is something I have been hesitant to really dive into because I was worried about the questions that would be brought forward and I was scared to answer them. I finally tuned in and her authenticity is so inviting. I feel like I’m sitting in the room with a friend. It feels safe to listen and think about the topics she is bringing forward.

Cannot express how thankful I am for this community! I didn’t find Queen Warriors, something divine must’ve sent them to ME! I have never felt this connected/invested in a wellness journey. For the first time I feel like I am going to learn how to love me!

Looking forward to my workout later!

Wendy!! Watch the latest mindset coaching with Jennifer. I have a feeling the conversation will resonate. Text girl! We are here for you!

***1:32am was finally able to get my workout in. Abs and booty with Fabiana and closed it out with an excellent work out with Coach Jamila It was a replay of course but nonetheless it was so sweet to see Fabi, Raven and Jennifer send her off on maternity leave. Congratulations Coach Jamila I hope you’re enjoying those precious newborn moments. Looking forward to your return!

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11 Jan 02:54

Accountability check in: Day 10 of 30 days of movement. #NEW

I’m still here! Started the workout with the booty and abs with Fabiana and wrapped up with Raven Cruz

The issue I’m having right now is eating. I feel like I’m scared to eat too much… I am following the custom meal plan I received with the fab fit Christmas but I feel like I’m eating a lot. I know that sounds crazy… my old eating habits were bad - go all day with only having a venti espresso with cold foam from Starbucks then once I get the boys to bed I’ll eat scraps and snacks while I watched a show or doom scrolled. Now eating through the day I feel very full and am slowly getting out of the late night eating cravings but I guess it’s just the transition I need to get used to as well is realizing my body is adjusting from living off survival mode to actually being given nutrients and a sustainable eating routine. I need to more diligent about water consumption…

Wendy!! How you doin’, girl!! I hope you have a chill weekend and find some time for us Queens.

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