Accountability check in:

Today was…

I was able to diagnose my food addiction. I eat when I’m anxious or nervous. I have been doing really well with tracking my food and staying within the bounds of the diet but today I was picking little bites from the boys plates as I plated their food, took a couple snack bites from their snack time plate, opened the freezer and grabbed a couple frozen bananas covered in chocolate.. I didn’t realize what I was doing until my son said, “Mom stop eating our food. Those are my snacks” I was like shit I didn’t realize what I was doing…

My ex was coming by to say bye to the boys and get the last of his things and I was so nervous and anxious I just kept shoveling things in my mouth. It’s 100 percent like Jennifer Daniela Zoga said, food to mouth is something we can control when we feel like we don’t have any control over a situation.

Anyway, he came and I made sure to not let him through the threshold and that was that.

Had to go to the store to buy water and my car died again! Sooooo, long story short I carried the boys, baby on my chest and five year old on my back for the two mile walk home. Apparently tow trucks can’t fit more than three people in them and some ubers don’t take car seats and tow truck drivers can’t wait for you to figure out how you’re getting home and if you need the car seat or not because they have a schedule to keep… I’m not mad… I took a breath and just thought ok I been doing HIIT and legs for the last few weeks, let’s go!… I’m not doing a workout today even though I probably should… my back needs a rest. I will skip Sunday rest day and reset everything tomorrow.

I did log everything I ate and shockingly I was only 300 calories over my limit but my carbs were 50 grams over. That’s a killer. I’m hoping that walk carrying 75 pounds between the boys helped with all that.

I diagnosed the issue with the car when we got home and the radiator tube cracked in half. I ordered the parts and did a temporary repair so I’ll see if I can get it started tomorrow and I’ll shop around for an affordable mechanic.

Anyway… keep pushing queens! It’s only like 86 more days until summer and our challenge is like almost over!! We got this!

The picture is my patch job of the cracked radiator tube. Yes, that’s duck tape you see on there and yes it’s rigged mad ghetto but you know what I am saving money by doing this and this will allow me the time I need to find the right price for the job.

Oh, something nice that came of all this- My upstairs neighbors came down to chit chat and ended up getting Isaiah and Forest a little treat for “being good helpers and sticking it out with mommy” The girls upstairs gave me their number and told me to call them anytime we need a ride and even offered to help us in the morning with school. I’m telling you, when you open yourself up to god and positivity the world shifts.

*Sidenote: Electric State is not worth the 2 hrs and 8 minutes. I cut it off halfway. Movie is so bad. If you have minimal free time and plan the things you’re going to watch if you watch don’t do it

Accountability check in:

W3D1 done! Was super excited to get the last rep in and then Fabiana said 1 minute of jump rope but it turned out to be two… 😩

Felt great in the end though

Today is day one of no turning back to my ex and it’s a perfect way to kick off the midway point of the challenge.

We got this 💪