Accountability check in:

Today is supposed to be a rest day but I worked out because I took my rest day earlier this week. I did Chasity replay from last Thursday again today. Why I chose to torture myself like that two days in a row? I don’t know..

I have transcended space and time. My body died and my spirit has been left questioning my decision making abilities.

Haha, no it was great. I needed it. I was trying to convince myself of a million reasons why I shouldn’t workout and finding shortcuts to get the work in, “I’ll do a ten minute workout and that will be fine because the challenge is only supposed to be three days a week anyway” That’s true but that’s not the commitment I made to myself.

Showed up. Got it done. Feel better mentally and physically.

Bring it on world!

Accountability check in:

After everything that happened today I would have normally just given up on everything I have been working on this last month and gone to my depression comforts - Supernatural and late night snacking. No bedtime routine and no workout.

Instead I turned on The Becoming 5 year anniversary replay and listened again to Fabiana and the guest speakers. Cleaned our little apt, had a talk with my five year old like janessa suggested and we wrote a list of goals for our week.

Once the boys were asleep I got the workout in. A full hour with Chasity . Felt Great! I saved the workout! Those compound movements with the kettlebell were intense!

I cannot give up on me. It took so much for me to get my boys and I into our own space and I cannot violate that by letting him back. I can’t lean into self doubt and I cannot allow my ex to manipulate situations to his benefit.

I am becoming her…

Thank you Wendy for coming through with support. I’m happy you’re here for the #LYC

He knows when we see Fabiana it’s time to put in work. Little did he know we were partying today, haha.

The speakers were amazing and to know they are personal friends of Fabiana just solidifies we are in good hands and in a safe space.

I took screenshots of the chat because you Queens are seriously amazing and even though we are miles and miles apart and have never met in person I hope to continue to build/strengthen friendships with you ladies! Thank you, my boys thank you!

Congratulations to our coaches and Fabiana for hitting a milestone of 5 years! We appreciate you guys more than we could ever truly convey via words

Oh, and Nicole we are going to have to get coffee sometime! Workout together!

I will workout tonight once I get the boys to sleep!! Stay strong Queens! Today was a special day!