Accountability check in:

Today is supposed to be a rest day but I worked out because I took my rest day earlier this week. I did Chasity replay from last Thursday again today. Why I chose to torture myself like that two days in a row? I don’t know..

I have transcended space and time. My body died and my spirit has been left questioning my decision making abilities.

Haha, no it was great. I needed it. I was trying to convince myself of a million reasons why I shouldn’t workout and finding shortcuts to get the work in, “I’ll do a ten minute workout and that will be fine because the challenge is only supposed to be three days a week anyway” That’s true but that’s not the commitment I made to myself.

Showed up. Got it done. Feel better mentally and physically.

Bring it on world!

Accountability check in:

After everything that happened today I would have normally just given up on everything I have been working on this last month and gone to my depression comforts - Supernatural and late night snacking. No bedtime routine and no workout.

Instead I turned on The Becoming 5 year anniversary replay and listened again to Fabiana and the guest speakers. Cleaned our little apt, had a talk with my five year old like janessa suggested and we wrote a list of goals for our week.

Once the boys were asleep I got the workout in. A full hour with Chasity . Felt Great! I saved the workout! Those compound movements with the kettlebell were intense!

I cannot give up on me. It took so much for me to get my boys and I into our own space and I cannot violate that by letting him back. I can’t lean into self doubt and I cannot allow my ex to manipulate situations to his benefit.

I am becoming her…

Thank you Wendy for coming through with support. I’m happy you’re here for the #LYC