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Today was…

I was able to diagnose my food addiction. I eat when I’m anxious or nervous. I have been doing really well with tracking my food and staying within the bounds of the diet but today I was picking little bites from the boys plates as I plated their food, took a couple snack bites from their snack time plate, opened the freezer and grabbed a couple frozen bananas covered in chocolate.. I didn’t realize what I was doing until my son said, “Mom stop eating our food. Those are my snacks” I was like shit I didn’t realize what I was doing…

My ex was coming by to say bye to the boys and get the last of his things and I was so nervous and anxious I just kept shoveling things in my mouth. It’s 100 percent like Jennifer Daniela Zoga said, food to mouth is something we can control when we feel like we don’t have any control over a situation.

Anyway, he came and I made sure to not let him through the threshold and that was that.

Had to go to the store to buy water and my car died again! Sooooo, long story short I carried the boys, baby on my chest and five year old on my back for the two mile walk home. Apparently tow trucks can’t fit more than three people in them and some ubers don’t take car seats and tow truck drivers can’t wait for you to figure out how you’re getting home and if you need the car seat or not because they have a schedule to keep… I’m not mad… I took a breath and just thought ok I been doing HIIT and legs for the last few weeks, let’s go!… I’m not doing a workout today even though I probably should… my back needs a rest. I will skip Sunday rest day and reset everything tomorrow.

I did log everything I ate and shockingly I was only 300 calories over my limit but my carbs were 50 grams over. That’s a killer. I’m hoping that walk carrying 75 pounds between the boys helped with all that.

I diagnosed the issue with the car when we got home and the radiator tube cracked in half. I ordered the parts and did a temporary repair so I’ll see if I can get it started tomorrow and I’ll shop around for an affordable mechanic.

Anyway… keep pushing queens! It’s only like 86 more days until summer and our challenge is like almost over!! We got this!

The picture is my patch job of the cracked radiator tube. Yes, that’s duck tape you see on there and yes it’s rigged mad ghetto but you know what I am saving money by doing this and this will allow me the time I need to find the right price for the job.

Oh, something nice that came of all this- My upstairs neighbors came down to chit chat and ended up getting Isaiah and Forest a little treat for “being good helpers and sticking it out with mommy” The girls upstairs gave me their number and told me to call them anytime we need a ride and even offered to help us in the morning with school. I’m telling you, when you open yourself up to god and positivity the world shifts.

*Sidenote: Electric State is not worth the 2 hrs and 8 minutes. I cut it off halfway. Movie is so bad. If you have minimal free time and plan the things you’re going to watch if you watch don’t do it

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W3D1 done! Was super excited to get the last rep in and then Fabiana said 1 minute of jump rope but it turned out to be two… 😩

Felt great in the end though

Today is day one of no turning back to my ex and it’s a perfect way to kick off the midway point of the challenge.

We got this 💪

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Today is supposed to be a rest day but I worked out because I took my rest day earlier this week. I did Chasity replay from last Thursday again today. Why I chose to torture myself like that two days in a row? I don’t know..

I have transcended space and time. My body died and my spirit has been left questioning my decision making abilities.

Haha, no it was great. I needed it. I was trying to convince myself of a million reasons why I shouldn’t workout and finding shortcuts to get the work in, “I’ll do a ten minute workout and that will be fine because the challenge is only supposed to be three days a week anyway” That’s true but that’s not the commitment I made to myself.

Showed up. Got it done. Feel better mentally and physically.

Bring it on world!

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After everything that happened today I would have normally just given up on everything I have been working on this last month and gone to my depression comforts - Supernatural and late night snacking. No bedtime routine and no workout.

Instead I turned on The Becoming 5 year anniversary replay and listened again to Fabiana and the guest speakers. Cleaned our little apt, had a talk with my five year old like janessa suggested and we wrote a list of goals for our week.

Once the boys were asleep I got the workout in. A full hour with Chasity . Felt Great! I saved the workout! Those compound movements with the kettlebell were intense!

I cannot give up on me. It took so much for me to get my boys and I into our own space and I cannot violate that by letting him back. I can’t lean into self doubt and I cannot allow my ex to manipulate situations to his benefit.

I am becoming her…

Thank you Wendy for coming through with support. I’m happy you’re here for the #LYC

He knows when we see Fabiana it’s time to put in work. Little did he know we were partying today, haha.

The speakers were amazing and to know they are personal friends of Fabiana just solidifies we are in good hands and in a safe space.

I took screenshots of the chat because you Queens are seriously amazing and even though we are miles and miles apart and have never met in person I hope to continue to build/strengthen friendships with you ladies! Thank you, my boys thank you!

Congratulations to our coaches and Fabiana for hitting a milestone of 5 years! We appreciate you guys more than we could ever truly convey via words

Oh, and Nicole we are going to have to get coffee sometime! Workout together!

I will workout tonight once I get the boys to sleep!! Stay strong Queens! Today was a special day!

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Today I went to the gym with a couple friends of mine. I showed them everything I’ve learned from Queen Warriors, it was a lot of fun! Jogged a mile on the treadmill.. We got in a full hour and we were sweating! And don’t worry, we worked on Marta’s form a little bit so she won’t hurt herself when we go again 😅I will complete another lil workout at home because I felt a little distracted. Today was a nice day. This was a big moment because I’ve only had a sitter a couple of times for the boys. The onl

person they have been with is their dad and that’s only for short shifts at work. I had a true girls night and it felt scary but fun to be away from my boys for a little bit.

I have so much room in my shirts these days. I wear really baggy clothes because I want to hide my body and I realized how ridiculous I look! So much excess material just adding excess bulk to my appearance

** I ended up getting a little extra work in at home once I got the boys to bed. 30 minutes of Coach Jamila latest replay and a 10 minute booty blaster session with Fabiana.

Queen Warriors Customer Support today I received a notice stating my account is logged into too many devices. It showed six devices and I only have Queen Warriors on my phone and TV… I changed my password. I’m not sure if that’s normal or if maybe others have had a similar issue? Just kind of made me nervous maybe someone has logged in without permission?: 1.) I post some pretty vulnerable things 2.) The pictures I’ve posted are meant for the community and your staff 3.) I don’t want my membership in jeopardy because it appears that I am sharing my account when I am not.

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Today was dedicated whole heartedly to putting into action the things I have learnt through Queen Warriors.

First thing when the boys father walked in the door this morning was to complain and try baiting an argument.

Raven asked in the W2D2 workout if the #LYC “Is this something your higher self would do?”

So, I asked myself and moved forward and held boundaries. Asked him to leave, texted him later and brought the baby with me to work after dropping the eldest to school.

This is day five of really sticking to my basic basic diet. I have to keep things simple to keep things moving and I have to say it’s working. I also wanted to let it be known that the 12 pounds lost is not from the start date of the challenge. A majority of that weight is from a week and two days prior, so 5lbs has been lost during the challenge. BUT I must remind myself it’s not about the scale! Accountability, showing up for me, being who I need to be… you know the drill.

Long winded as usual but I got the W2D3 workout in as well as a ten minute booty blaster session, the first half of the todays live and no treadmill being that it’s 3am. I don’t want to risk waking the boys up.

Her energy!! So fun! Anybody else enjoy it??

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I am here and I am doing it! From mental to physical I am becoming who I am destined to be! By order and decree I am becoming the woman of my dreams!!

Thank you Queens and all of our coaches for keeping me on track!!

*I hope this momentum continues because ya girl want to flaunt this summer

I completed Week 2 Day 2 and 2 miles on the treadmill. Kept the treadmill under 40 minutes as to not stress the joints out too much 💪

Food logged and meals prepped so everything today ran smooth and… honestly… perfectly!f