Happy Friday Queens!! Felt the need to share today so excuse me if it’s TMI but here it goes:
So the last 3 years of my life have been so rough! My husband was diagnosed with stage 3 rectal cancer in 2021 and everything came crumbling down. He endured so much pain and suffering during this time and I was a mess though I kept my game face on in front of him and our kids. I cried alone a lot and I honestly didn’t know how I was going to continue being strong but I did it and it was with God and my husband’s help because of how strong minded and spiritual he was. I had so many emotions and I questioned God because I couldn’t understand why he wanted to take my best friend away and why would He want him to experience so much pain when he was the nicest and sweetest person. Not only that, but my kids as well, and the worst part of it all was that I had no control of it all. My husband went to be with God on July 7th of this year (our son’s birthday by the way) and I was devastated but also relieved because I knew he was no longer suffering. I am grateful that he got to meet our grandson and was able to feel that kind of love before he left us. It’s just been hard and I have been in a very sad and dark place but I have made the choice to turn things around and think more of the love we were able to share with one another for so many years and how many beautiful memories we made. That has helped me get out of this funk and start working out again. I use all these emotions as fuel to push me everyday. I have been more consistent and more dedicated to just feeling better. I want to thank Queen Warriors for all the support and love because I’m sure we as women need that more than we think sometimes. When Fabi speaks her words of faith during our workouts it helps me so much. Just want to thank you all and if all else fails God is with us even when we are in our worst storms. Faith and Love…. Sorry for long message 🫤