Happy almost the weekend Queens!! 🔆 I hope everyone has had a productive week so far!!

I am here to vent, release, be vulnerable...not really sure but I'm here.  The past few weeks have been really challenging for me.  I have had 2 friends pass away unexpectedly back to back and it has been really difficult to stay focused, positive or motivated.  I feel that I had just gotten in a routine that I could make work with my schedule and the news of my friends passing away has devastated me and thrown me off my purpose. 

Im a single mom (my daughter is a teenager) that works 2 full time jobs and finding time for ME has been a struggle. Ive been working nonstop for the past 3-4 years and neglected taking care of me. I didnt make time for self care.  Eventually, I got in the place where I felt I needed to do something to take care of myself, get back to feeling good in my own skin and getting back to looking in the mirror and seeing "that girl".   

I joined Queen Warriors in September of last year and did the 16 week Recomp Program.  I was so excited and eager to learn and must say, I did just that!  I learned what to eat, how to intentionally eat, how much to eat, how to workout and what I needed to do to build muscle, tone and drop the 10-15pounds I had hoped for.  I dropped 10 pounds within the first couple fo weeks.   Then towards the end, the excitement kind of went away and although I was still eating correctly, I wasnt as on point as I was.  I didnt gain any of the weight back...I just remained the same. After the 16 weeks was over I signed for the program (now 12 weeks) again. Although the program changed a bit, I continued to use the numbers (calorie & protein intake and active calories)  Fabi had given me for the 16 week program.  I am now about halfway through that and have not lost or gained 1 pound.  Its like I have plateaued and am just remaining at the same numbers.  

I joined the LYC challenge hoping it would give me that extra push or "uumph" I needed to kick start these numbers moving again.  I do the workouts, I walk 10K steps everyday including a 2 mile walk with my dog everyday. All while working 2 full time jobs and sometimes my work days are 12 hours long.  

Now that I finally feel like I have managed a schedule to include myself and my workouts, I feel "stuck".   I think I just have a lot going on mentally that its draining me physically. I just want the excitement that I had previously to come back.  I have faith that it will and the end of the day, I know I got this. I trust God. I trust the Universe. I trust myself.  I need to hold myself accountable and put in 100%. 

I hear Fabiana's voice in my head and her always reminding us to be 1% better than yesterday!  I am grateful for her, all the coaches here (Raven, I already miss you) and all the Queens in this community!  I feel its a safe space and is why I am here releasing in hopes that is what I needed to get back on my 💩!

Thank you for providing that safe space Queens!! 👑💜

I send love and light to any Queen who needs it! 💐✨💜

✌️ & 💚