It’s been a CRAZY past few years for me. Battling with depression, feeling ugly, feeling unwanted, always seeking validation from the wrong people. It’s crazy how little things can make such a big impact in your life to discourage you to put fear in your heart. To a point where I felt suicidal, I cut off all my hair didn’t know what was wrong with me then three years ago something very traumatic happened to me to the point where I thought I was gonna lose my son to a state prison couldnt turn to my family Because they were so quick to judge couldn’t Ask for help I ended up spending all my savings to keep him out the System That was my breaking point. I started reflecting on all the bad things that happened to me since little and one day I just walked into a church and from that church I ended up walking into a gym and from the gym I ended up changing my eating habits and from my eating habits, I develop the routine. I wake up every day at 4:30 AM. I go do my cardio I get my workout in sometimes I use the queen warrior app and sometimes I just stick to cardio and weights but the point is that I get up and I do it. My whole day could go to shit but at least I know that I went to the gym that morning. At least I know that I meal prepped and I ate all my meals that I was supposed to eat. I don’t have no friends. I don’t have a husband I don’t have an accountability partner. I don’t have anybody pushing me. I don’t have anybody with me working out and that makes it even harder. The point is that I get up and I do it. I know that this is just the beginning for me. The best advice I can give to everybody is to be patient with yourself because your body may not look like the person to your left or the person to the right don’t expect results to come overnight, you gotta put in that work And we’re all human we all fall off the wagon we all get discouraged life happens, kids husband, work, bills, stress, family, friendships gossip life happens make sure to put yourself first. prayer worked a lot for me. Dedication work best for me and I’m gonna keep putting in that work. I’m just getting started so happy to be a part of a community where I can just vent and know that their woman out there probably going to be the same thing that I’m going through or maybe even worse. Just know that you’re not alone and don’t be discouraged. Start off by walking start off by developing a routine. I promise you it’ll get better. 210 pounds to 181 in over a year